Ok, so if anyone reads that last post they'll either think I'm lovesick or psychotic...

It might be a little of both.

After Anthony I was convinced that there were no more happy endings. No Prince to take me away to their castle and make me feel like a real Princess. Sure I play it off like I'm one...but then this great guy came along that my best girl introduced me to and he was so sweet, and patient and funny and I fell, no matter how hard I tried to fight it I fell so hard. Truth was around him I didn't need to be anyone but me...

Not the daughter who tries to constantly fight her way through futile attempts to please her mother who constantly tells her she's to fat or she's not working hard enough, not Princess Rachael who tries to shine as bright as the other people around her and not blend into the woodwork...

I was just Elizabeth; Just his Eliza. And that was enough for me...Finally, I didn't have to be someone I wasn't around him.

I'm tired...so tired.

Tired of being told that I'm good enough to be a friend, but not to be a wife.

Tired of endlessly wearing my heart on my sleeve only get it ripped out

Tired of having my dreams be shattered and putting the pieces back together one by one.

Tired of rebuilding myself again and again...

Don't tell me I deserve better, because whatever you think I deserve doesn't exist and it's not what I want.

I want us...The life we talked over and over of having. Getting married, settling down, starting a little "Baseball team" of our own.

I deserve you...

And if I can't have that then Goddess give me the strength to move on because I'm tired of loving this way.

-Elizabeth

How can you just walk on by

Without one tear in your eye

Don't you have the slightest feelings left for me

Maybe that's just your way

Of dealing with the pain

Forgetting everything between our rise and fall

Like we never loved at all...