It's been almost 2 weeks I've been without you.

Without your touch... your kiss...Without your physical presence near me.

And yet you're everywhere.

I still feel you in my bed, your arms around me...

Your eyes watching me constantly...

Your voice is ever present in my mind. The promises you made, the life we started to plan, the vows you swore are written on my heart....

I gave you everything. Heart, Body, and Soul.

You said it yourself...One of the reasons you love me is because I always see the good in the world in spite of the bad. You were the one who kept me "good".

You were right...That quote I wrote was all about you:

"How do you learn to live again when you want to sink to the bottom of your river of tears and lie with the pieces of your broken heart?"

I go from wanting to eat nothing, to wanting to eat everything.

I can't sleep. Popping a pill won't help. I struggle to keep myself from drinking me into a mind numbing stupor because when I sleep all I see if my dreams of us. Of a future that you say won't happen. A future that what's left of my heart and soul won't let me give up on. A future that my "Gift" and my other friends keep telling me not to give up on...To stay strong and live my life as I've done before...

You have no idea how far I've fallen from grace...

Revenge? You couldn't fathom the ideas I've come up with. You've never seen me truely out for blood...You wouldn't think me capable of such maliciousness and pain.

But I know it'll only numb the pain for a little while, the joy of seeing you suffer as I have would be short lived and then where would I be?

You were it for me...My last chance for the future I wanted for myself.

Príncipe de mi corazón

Fenrir to my Lupa

My only love...